When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home

Spent the long weekend with John and it was pretty fantastic. Spending time with him always reminds me how much fun we have together and how much I really like him. At this point, things are just so comfortable. I can fully be myself and I can over-share as much as I like and although he sometimes rolls his eyes at me, he's always listening and caring for me. When I'm with him, I can literally feel just how much he loves me. It's really one of the best feelings in the world. I guess I am just looking for safety and stability after all. And even though we are still doing this thing long-distance, after this trip I feel like I have that.

And we did have the talk. Some might say that it was way overdue, but in some ways I think it had to happen when it made sense to us. And maybe the circumstances weren't ideal, but it felt right at this time. In some ways, I was waiting for someone else to come along and sweep me off my feet but at this point in my life I just don't know if that's gonna happen because my feelings for him are just so strong. I know that you can't anticipate what life will throw at you, but right now I'm just happy to be with him, despite the distance. This is the relationship that I want. Though now planning for next year becomes a bit more complex.

I've also been listening to Owl City a lot more and the 'Saltwater Room' is really moving me lately. "So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?/ All the time."